And so I return

    So here I am, making my big return to my little realm. Or what's left of it. I've went and changed my site name to Amethyst Skies. I think that having the site named after me might have made me feel like a little bit of a "self-centered Sally". I'd like to blame my absence on my lack of creative vision, but in all honesty I've been in a bad place for the past year-or-so. There's a lot of things to take into account there (good bad AND ugly), but it started with my third sepsis episode last June. Realizing I have to carry this burden of my bad health for the rest of my life... Bleak. But here I am, getting up and doing it again every morning and that counts for something!

    How did I get the name Amethyst Skies?

    I've been behind-the-scenes working on webpages for the past year or so, but I struggle publishing them for one reason or the next... I thought to myself "Hm, what if I just totally changed my site, down to the name". I was mulling over different ideas for days, actually. Finally the one day, I decided I needed to listen to some Hole for other unrelated reasons. I put on You'll Live Through This, and from the first words Courtney screamed at me, I had just found my answer.

    And the sky was made of amethyst
    And all the stars were just like little fish

    Many thanks to 'Violet' for the inspiration! It was seriously perfect, considering my birthstone is amethyst (maybe it's bias but also I really appreciate any quartzy stone!), and also this whole site is very much in-my-mind, a 'sky' already (considering I was really focused on faeries A.k.a, a realm). So here we are. This site is purple as of writing this, but I don't know if it will always be a constant. I do like to change shit up all the time...

    As well as a fresh start to the site overall, I decided that this will be (yet again) my first post on this blog... But fear not! if you actually care to read the others... they can be found here. I didn't want to totally kill them, but this post will be the only place you'll find that friend :)

    Also...Pressure

    Honestly, one of the really big things that has held me back during the creation of this site is this pressure that I've put on myself to check every single box that there is when it comes to creating a personal site; which is probably one of the more counterintuitive things I've done. In all of that, I realized that if I really want this thing to prosper for me, I would have to do it my way. So no more worrying about responsiveness and other shit that is way out of my scope as a code newbie and professional scatterbrain

    I'm writing this here as a promise to myself that it's okay to not do all of this over-my-head shit right now; stop stressing because this site is just for some fun!!

    What else is new for me?

    Life has been chaotic— but then again, when isn't it. I've been having a laid back summer. Working on a lot of stuff, smoking weed out on my porch, writing, planning, and definitely a lot of yearning for greener pastures. But all in time, I guess. It's been tricky to keep mentally sane considering the world around me, but I think I've been doing a pretty okay job. I just practice my breathing and imagine what the Kennedy Assassination would be like but in 2025 😇. Can't a fella have a convertible motorcade to celebrate his presidential achievments anymore?!? erm....

    Things I've been enjoying lately

    Where will this blog take me?

    I'm not too sure! There's plenty of stuff I'm thinking of uploading here. Which is really handy considering I have the tags feature here. Very cool, thanks Zonelots!. I think my first post after this one, however, will be a recap of all of the *good things* that have happened for me in real life over my absence. because I frequently need to remind myself of so-called good things